When I was out on that stage in front of a room full of people, I could feel all of the sets of eyes on me, waiting, and I felt nervous because I am not very experienced in performing my own choreography. At the same time, I felt so alive and exhilarated because I was doing something that I love and I got to share that with the audience. I did not practice my dance during the minutes before my performance because once I stepped out on that stage, nothing mattered. The movement came freely and I did not have to worry about messing up, because even if I did, I was so in the moment that I would have been able to continue on effortlessly.
As I danced across the stage, I could see both the audience and the people backstage, but it was difficult to pick people out because everything was dark. I was aware of the black curtains hanging from the side of the room and the lights that were held behind them. They were white lights shining brightly into my eyes and I could not look directly at them or else I would get disoriented. I took notice of the way the floor felt on my feet so I could properly gain my balance. The floor was smooth yet hard, and there was a lot of friction between the floor and my feet.
I began onstage facing the upstage corner. This corner represented my past and the way I used to dance. Therefore, I performed movements with straight legs and pointed toes like I was taught in ballet. As I reached to the corner and windmilled my arms, I quickly did a fan kick with my leg high in the air to face the opposite corner, which represented the future and growth. When I was facing this new corner, my movements were sharp and quick like I was scared. I went on to do a pas de bourre, which is a ballet step, but I let my upper body release. During this part, I held most of my tension in my legs since they were the part that was working. I quickly snapped around again to face the far corner while reaching with my arms as if I wanted to go there, but being very cautious in my legs as I scooted towards the center. The music goes silent for a couple seconds, then picks up speed as I continue on with the rest of my experience.